OH my dear Non..
I tried to pullout a rock that was between us. Never knew you only needed a small rock to create the distance between us. And that rock created a hole which was between us. Then I felt like I was stuck. The path that led to you just crumbled right from the edge of my toe. And there was nothing beyond my toe. I could see you but i couldnt reach you. I filled the air crying out your name but you could only hear her sweet voice's sing. I looked at you , I cried out loud for you , I tried to reached out to you but you only went away to hear her sing. Was her voice sweeter than my cry of pain? When I saw her I couldn't see your face , it was just covered with your kisses of lie and unfaithfulness. And I look at my myself i couldn't see my face it was covered with your spit of laugh of yours and hers togetherness.. I should have seen this coming because I saw you together that evening. Oh yes! I did spy on you why wont I do. I missed you and went to the fortune teller to know if you missed me too. With an warm excitement I asked the fortune teller if he missed me too. The fortune teller went silent and gave me a crystal ball to look through. And I saw gimps of you two. My heart sank and it sank like a falling dove shout by gun not knowing where it would land. But I acted like an actor to see how you act as an actor to see who acts better.
It is not right to walk forward to walk backward . why would you tangle me in your crazy patter of walking backward. They say it ,they say it right "only fools rush in " we three were the fools rushing in. Never knew how other is feeling. It was easy for you getting everything wanted to do, but we two , I bet only we two knew the pain of losing you.
Oh !! I cant tell you how hard it was to let you go. Everyday I was punished ,everyday I cried and everyday I saw new scars running down like streams making sea ocean of pain collected as it is going to overflow.
And now I don't remember your love because there was no love from you. But I do remember the pain , the pain I got for truly loving you. I never held you tightly , but I was never lose . It always felt like you had a secret needle inside , when ever I
tried to hold you tight you would poke me try to push me away. Every thousand times I hug you tightly It hurt , and every thousand times I cried when you held. May be that was god trying to tell me the truth. You are a loser to me and you were a loser to her . I know I desire better , I know she desires better . You were a lair , you are a lair even you can't deny it. You lied to her you didn't love her anymore , you lied to me you will always love me. And you twisted it to your benefit and said you didn't love me anymore, you will always love her. For your own benefit you yourself stepped down on your knees and show me your dirty face you had be hiding.
now I say to you, don't step forward because she wouldn't be waiting for you to return backward. Don't be seen with someone else ,always be alone missing her like I always wanted to be missed. Don't twist her and don't tangle her with your worthless shitty worlds because god can only forgive you twice. Be the better man that she desires If you didn't I bet there be thousands of guys waiting for their turn. And yes !! As for it wont matter if I go to hell or heaven .. with love ...... so and so
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