Light me uP

The four awful things

• I know everything thing about her ,Yet a day comes and I have to take my turn and greet her formally like a stranger . And I can hear every one's mind saying she is no longer the person you used to know. 
• Those familiar brown eyes which only saw my innocence  in every naughtiness i play, changed into finding faults and doubting everything i say.
• loyalty and loving service , One unlucky day and It was busy calculating the damage i cause . Never expected anything from it but Never thought it won't even get over from the spot filled with it's own worries of farther risk and loss. Even unseeing the presents of pain and the hurt.
• the stubborn , esteemed ,egoist and the big I , breaking down in a single week of unpredictable life

Friend ,family,love and myself all messed up.But i couldn't just sit there and do nothing so, I went to her, told her what i felt And she said "stupid i won't change at all , Once this crazy things is over i would be back to myself ) and that really contented my scared heart. About those eyes , I am still being watched with utter most fear and doubts but i act like i don't really care. That loyalty and service didn't earn much of concern so , it was better for me to quit right that moment . As for myself,, i got awesome and supper refreshing break for my life . Five continues days of waking up early , being busy all day , and falling sleep without thinking about anything . Lived a different life . Peaceful place , funny and talkative monks , bossy boss, my busy sister running here and there , eating the same lunch for dinner, being serve tea every two hour ,  understanding more about the culture , feeling appreciated for my efforts and those lights of lights has just light me up      

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drink some tea to refresh my tired mind

Wish i can float freely like these clouds 

My city of lights Kathmandu

caught my eye when i was waiting for my ride back home 

Pray for me too

We all need some break

Loneliness 

wake up early in the morning 

Stayed a night in one of these rooms . 

feel relaxed whenever i pass through these place  

my Favorite Over sized white shirt and black converse   

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The white thing

 The recent  Haute couture Was the most  admired and the most inspiring for me. Inspired by that i tried to do something myself and My mother gave me this lovely white cloth to play with . She knows what i really want and need .So thankful to her. i love my mummy  so much.
 So, With my old  sewing machine  i made this maxi skirt . Well! i always have hard time with the measurement and problems . But somehow i did it . YEAH !! 

the white cloth that my mother gave .

WIP . It was too simple so ,i added little white shinny  things.  

This is how it really looks

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From my brother 's closet

 Tokyo laundry shirt / black jeans / all star shoes  

 Do you ever feel like you have nothing to wear even though tons of clothes are there in the closet ? This always happens to me . Even though my closet is loaded with clothes Sometimes i feel like i don't have anything to wear . But luckily i  always have a " plan B". My brother's closet. I have been wearing my brother's clothes since the history . NO wonder I am such a tomboy like. They don't really mind sharing. Shoes , shorts , shirts anything . My brothers are so nice and sometimes very irritating too  ;) But it is a great feeling when you can sneak in and get something nice to wear without all the fights and arguments. So , this is " Tokyo laundry - faded jean shirt  from my Brother's closet . 

And there he goess ...

What could be more heart breaking than losing a precious thing ?


I feel  there is a thing which is more precious than world's precious diamond ring, more tender than the touch of a feather , and more beautiful than the first bloom of flower . And when you lose that thing what would you do ? The most precious , the most tender and the most beautiful.
Even though i lost it , seems like i can grab it and get it back . But I can't . what can a hopeless  person possibly do if it don't really wants you? The tears wont do the trick and a broken heart that no one can fix . It is like you can want it but you can never get it .And if you ask me how does that feel?? I may say. That doesn't hurt and that doesn't pain . The hurt and the pain can hide under the sunny day but when the darkness  over takes i have no place to hide and no place to stow away. Dark and lonely , regret and sorrow what else is there to feel when it can only be so shallow. They only said it is hard to let it go but they never warned me that it would be more harder to see someone letting you go .
    Now smiling with my unwilling heart , gathered all my broken parts. I may set off for a new start.

And there he goes ........

Another day of DIY

Calvin Klein 

MY brother's old shirt 

Some cutting and sewing 

came out !!!!

I saw this Calvin Klein shirt  abandoned by my brother . I took it and did  all the experiments  i ever wanted to do. I cut out the sleeves and the collar and every thing which bothered  :) When i was done with the cutting , i sewed  the remaining ones. And this is what it looks like now . It is easy to wear and perfect for the hot boring days at home .

Neon fever !

Old navy shirt / gap pants / puma bag 

HM shirt / Armani jeans / allstar

   Bright neon colors are the favorite for this summer .Everyone has the neon in their closet.  The bright color makes the summer even more brighter .Well! this is the closest outfit that i can get for the Neon fever. I know its not to much but i like it as it is . I really don't believe  in shouting out  NEON and going crazy over it . lol

IN LOVE WITH DIY

my diy black leather tassel earring 

old leather and my cousin sister 's old earring 

Done it 

 I am in love with the Diy . It  feels so good when can make something out of nothing . Rather than throwing the old things you can actually made something new out of it . Plus the Diy blogs are so inspiring. I actually try to do them all but here in Kathmandu ,Boudha (my home town ) its so hard to find the craft shop where i can buy those things required for the diy :( . but my parents are really creative them self so they have most of the things i need kept safely . Chains ,wires , pins ,threads ,needles  you name it . The only problem is that i have search and hunt for those things

                                          hmmmm Today i made this  leather tassel earring. It was so much fun.

I had you in my hands. Now i need you in my arms

 Excited and nerves, that is what you feel when you see a new born baby. So tiny and fragile that you will hold the baby like the most precious thing in the whole wide world . And why not ? They are the most precious thing in the world .
                                     My nephew means the world to me .The first experience. He was so tiny that he could fit in my two hands .When i first saw him i thought , His innocent eyes could melt anyone , his smile can bring thousands of happiness and  his cries could tear anyone down . Indeed the most precious thing in the whole wide world. He was so soft and adorable that, I could feel the soft skin on my lips as i kissed him on his cheeks . those tiny little hands holding my finger like he is saying not to leave him, and his beautiful tiny feet always made me want to touch them. He was too adorable.  And as the time passed by , i saw him going through everything .I saw him grow. From the first time he came in my life ,till the last time he said goodbye. I was always there cautiously watching him as he made his moves.  I admit that i wasn't the best aunt , sometimes i was too lazy and sometimes i had my own things to do but i tried my best to be my best for this little guy. I played so many roles ,I followed him around as his assistant  , looked after him as his nanny , played games as his friend , protected him as his bodyguard and most of all  i love him as i am his mother. hmm i think little less i guess;)
Now that he is all grown up and far away , i wonder if he misses me as much as i do.And wait for the day when i will be able to hug him and say i missed you.

that innocent little eyes always melts my heart 

from the naughty smile to the irritating tantrums, saw it all

I loved to dress him up like a girls . he always looks so cute

Enjoyed my time dressing him up

the first hair cut ! we all were so excited 

The first day of his school , he cried and made me cry too

The last photo that i took ! he was all ready to go .

All grown up now .

kisses to everyone  <3

keeping every bit of you

My birthday gift . But it was too big for my wrist so ,i went down to the watch shop and made it as it could fit me right .And i also brought home those extra ones because i really felt funny leaving them there.  i made this out of those extra chains . I think i'm obsessed with pearls :)

I'M just a girl

Vintage side roll lace top/ my diy skirt / converse shoes 

            My mother 's old vintage sewing machine becomes my best friend when i m all alone. Sometimes i really don't have anything to do. AND times like that always make me , go to my balcony AND I always find the old machine and a piece of cloth waiting for me. This is what i made the last time i had a boring day. A skirt! I really tried to make it perfect but i'm neither a trained, nor took any lesson on sewing . So i had some troubles . but i pulled it off . 

     

 IF YOU ASK ME WHY SKIRT ???  BECAUSE I M JUST A GIRL