Light me uP

The four awful things

• I know everything thing about her ,Yet a day comes and I have to take my turn and greet her formally like a stranger . And I can hear every one's mind saying she is no longer the person you used to know. 
• Those familiar brown eyes which only saw my innocence  in every naughtiness i play, changed into finding faults and doubting everything i say.
• loyalty and loving service , One unlucky day and It was busy calculating the damage i cause . Never expected anything from it but Never thought it won't even get over from the spot filled with it's own worries of farther risk and loss. Even unseeing the presents of pain and the hurt.
• the stubborn , esteemed ,egoist and the big I , breaking down in a single week of unpredictable life

Friend ,family,love and myself all messed up.But i couldn't just sit there and do nothing so, I went to her, told her what i felt And she said "stupid i won't change at all , Once this crazy things is over i would be back to myself ) and that really contented my scared heart. About those eyes , I am still being watched with utter most fear and doubts but i act like i don't really care. That loyalty and service didn't earn much of concern so , it was better for me to quit right that moment . As for myself,, i got awesome and supper refreshing break for my life . Five continues days of waking up early , being busy all day , and falling sleep without thinking about anything . Lived a different life . Peaceful place , funny and talkative monks , bossy boss, my busy sister running here and there , eating the same lunch for dinner, being serve tea every two hour ,  understanding more about the culture , feeling appreciated for my efforts and those lights of lights has just light me up      

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drink some tea to refresh my tired mind

Wish i can float freely like these clouds 

My city of lights Kathmandu

caught my eye when i was waiting for my ride back home 

Pray for me too

We all need some break

Loneliness 

wake up early in the morning 

Stayed a night in one of these rooms . 

feel relaxed whenever i pass through these place  

my Favorite Over sized white shirt and black converse   

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The white thing

 The recent  Haute couture Was the most  admired and the most inspiring for me. Inspired by that i tried to do something myself and My mother gave me this lovely white cloth to play with . She knows what i really want and need .So thankful to her. i love my mummy  so much.
 So, With my old  sewing machine  i made this maxi skirt . Well! i always have hard time with the measurement and problems . But somehow i did it . YEAH !! 

the white cloth that my mother gave .

WIP . It was too simple so ,i added little white shinny  things.  

This is how it really looks

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From my brother 's closet

 Tokyo laundry shirt / black jeans / all star shoes  

 Do you ever feel like you have nothing to wear even though tons of clothes are there in the closet ? This always happens to me . Even though my closet is loaded with clothes Sometimes i feel like i don't have anything to wear . But luckily i  always have a " plan B". My brother's closet. I have been wearing my brother's clothes since the history . NO wonder I am such a tomboy like. They don't really mind sharing. Shoes , shorts , shirts anything . My brothers are so nice and sometimes very irritating too  ;) But it is a great feeling when you can sneak in and get something nice to wear without all the fights and arguments. So , this is " Tokyo laundry - faded jean shirt  from my Brother's closet . 

And there he goess ...

What could be more heart breaking than losing a precious thing ?


I feel  there is a thing which is more precious than world's precious diamond ring, more tender than the touch of a feather , and more beautiful than the first bloom of flower . And when you lose that thing what would you do ? The most precious , the most tender and the most beautiful.
Even though i lost it , seems like i can grab it and get it back . But I can't . what can a hopeless  person possibly do if it don't really wants you? The tears wont do the trick and a broken heart that no one can fix . It is like you can want it but you can never get it .And if you ask me how does that feel?? I may say. That doesn't hurt and that doesn't pain . The hurt and the pain can hide under the sunny day but when the darkness  over takes i have no place to hide and no place to stow away. Dark and lonely , regret and sorrow what else is there to feel when it can only be so shallow. They only said it is hard to let it go but they never warned me that it would be more harder to see someone letting you go .
    Now smiling with my unwilling heart , gathered all my broken parts. I may set off for a new start.

And there he goes ........